values

"Your values aren't with your family. Your life is all about friends and going
out. When you're home you're in your room and don't give a shit about anything
going on" - mom

Another Sunday night at the kitchen table getting a speech. I'm getting sick of it because it's the same talks week after week. I don't care about my family. I don't value a dollar. I'm selfish. I'm blind sided. I'm materialistic. I'm spoiled. Each week it's the same issues brought to the table. How many times can one bring them up and notice that it isn't going to change?

I have no reason to value a dollar. I'm ninteen years old with not one expense in my life. My values all lay within school. Get my grades, get into the university I want and pursue my career. I am the most spoiled child since I'm small. No one elses fault except for the one giving me the speech, my mother! I'm materialistic barely. I love shoes and purses, I barely buy any because I cannot afford them. I'm blind sided because on weekends I love to spend it with my boyfriend. I don't care about my family because we're so seperated? We all live within our own corners of this house? No one complains my brother just lives in the basement and doesn't associate. No education, unemployed and just a bum.

I cannot take the favortism anymore. It's driving me insane. I can't take feeling alone because everyone is shit. My friends are the most fucked up and self-centered assholes alive. Therefore, they're good for nothing. My family is old fashion and judgemental. I'm left with myself and nothing more. So, yes I do wish to live my life as I please. Come and go as I want. And just proceed till I can get out and do things my own way.